What if?

The ingredient: Shrimp
The Meal: The Devil's Shrimp
The conversation: long and winding.

What if everything you knew was true?  But then, what if it wasn't?

The life that you are careless, carefree living might not be what you think.  That child across the way may not be happy.  That bird in the sky may not be singing.  That love that you you feel pulling at your heart may not exist at all.

What if love is just an addiction?  Like alcohol or drugs or food.  What if there was chemically nothing you could do to stop it?  But what if there was?

Would you do it?

If you knew your reality wasn't a true reality and therefore not a reality at all other than it is what you are really living, would you take life and all the options that come with it into your hands and make the changes it would take?  The changes it would take to rediscover you and all that you possess to make life your reality.

Are there toxic behaviors, toxic relationships, toxic patterns that keep you in their grip without your consent?  Only you are too unaware of it to care?  What will it take to come to the realization of what is truly happening?


Relationships move in and out like the tide.  But unlike the tide they are not guided by the moon.  You have the choice to start to end to suspend a relationship.  Sometimes you make the decisions just to say that you made it and not someone else - even if deep down you don't believe it is the decision to be made.  Sometimes you miss the opportunity because the choice has been made for you.

Maybe you move from one high to the next as an addict would say, constantly seeking that next rush.  That rush may come from a smile, an email, a shared drink, a shared bed - whatever your fix is it is never enough because soon enough that latest rush will fade.

What if we, you, me treated our love lives as an addiction - like they are.  It is our challenge.  It is our duty to our self to stop the self loathing, self destructive path we may find our self on.

But then what is everything you know is true?  How will you ever know?

The Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will; That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next. Amen. --Reinhold Niebuhr

Interpretations - It's Greek to me...

Inspiration - Greek
Meal: Feta and Sun-Dried Tomato Stuffed Chicken and Greek Veggie Salad



So I was supposed to host a dinner party of sorts tonight.  I had invited a couple of friends over and they had agreed.  I also in passing mentioned it to a few others who were tentative.  C'est la vie. 

Well as of yesterday I was told "I'll let you know how I'm feeling tomorrow.." It was a week of colds so I was playing my day by ear - still planning on having people over for supper but not sure just how many.  That is until I got a text saying I'm a plagueship and no social interaction for me.  When I asked if that meant she hadn't had any social interaction or if she wasn't going to have any in the future I was told both.

With this information I texted the other "for sure" dinner guest and asked if he wanted to postpone or still have supper.  He wanted to wait.  Fair enough.  Later in my day I got a call from one of my maybes asking if I would be mad if she didn't want to shower and drive across town.  I told her not to worry that the others had passed as well.

Or so I had thought. 

I went about my day getting things done around my house, hitting the gym and running to the store to pick up a few things for supper - hey, just because everyone else canceled doesn't mean I wasn't still hungry for Greek...

As it neared the end of its cooking time I shamelessly posted that I was about to enjoy a very tasty Greek meal albeit out of Greek fashion (by myself).  Almost instantly I got a message from my friend who had earlier in the day told me she was a plagueship and not going to have social interaction.  She told me I wouldn't be eating alone if I had invited her.

What!??  But I had invited her.  And she said yes.  And then she said we'll see.  And then she said she was still sick and when I tried to confirm if she was truly not leaving her place she told me she was not. 

As it turns out she later told me that she was just griping about her husband.  And all of her texting me today was not just her trying to be a miserable sick person.  It was her trying to see what the plan was for tonight.

Lessons learned:
1.  Never assume you know what someone is talking about - ask probing questions.
2.  Tell people what you think you hear - that may not be what they think they said.
3.  The Greeks have amazing food and recipes and - no really some of the best flavor combinations in the world!